I have

Even with the most positive attitude and the best will in the world you can have bad days. I have.

Some days are just not what you expected. They don’t go the way you planned and you fall into bad habits again. I have.

So what do you do on those days? Do you give up and think ‘I’ll never be able to accomplish anything again because I failed today’? I have.

But I know it’s not true.

I know that, although tomorrow isn’t promised to me, I have today, I have now and I can plan to have a better day. I have.

I deserve better for myself

I chided myself yesterday evening.
I needed something, and as I instinctively reached out to fulfil my need I recognised that I was going for an option that I would not consider if I was doing this same thing for ANY body else. Thankfully I caught myself and said ‘You deserve better,’ and without feeling that I was on the edge of insanity I smiled and said to myself, ‘Yes, I do.’

Too often I think myself into the second-best position in my own life.

I deserve better.

Celebrating the uniqueness and brilliance of my own life is something that I do not do that often. I do not mean that I should go around professing my greatness at each and every opportunity instead I mean that I should cast off the inferiority complex that has beset me for so long. The voice that tells me that I should focus on others and their happiness more than my own joy, the voice that objects – out of bad habit – when I dare to choose my own pleasure for even a short while. The nagging feeling that it is not all right to spend time in pursuit of the activities that make me remember why I feel joy in my being.
In this new month, I resolve to remember that … I deserve better.